I've been mulling over things the last few days. Love, surprisingly, has been on my mind the most. I'm obsessed with finding out what it is.

Is it just a trained response to hormonal stimuli, procreation instincts, or is there actually something spiritual about the whole thing?

If there is such a thing as true love, how is it that people fall in and out of love so fast? Or learn to love again?

I've known some elderly people don't get over the loss of someone they love and die soon after, but perhaps that comes from a fear of being alone, not being able to find someone that could serve in that capacity ever again, or thinking they are too old for change.

How does someone find true love? In the wierdest, most unlikely places, I suspect. If chance should deviate a person's normal commute, journey, or way of perceiving things, they may find love waiting in the wings.

Egad. I'm sounding drifty again. I'm not sure what I'm saying.

Why me? Why pick on me? I know I have Windows XP but that doesn't mean you can rewrite my system files so I can't even get into fix it. Clever jerks. Alright, you're real clever. So can you fix the mess you've made?

*fuming angrily*

Stupid Lsass.exe error! What's wrong with your functions?! I don't know!!!

My brother's wife just had her first baby. She's 6 lbs. 14 oz. and 20 inches long. Her name is Lillian Jane T------. I just spent 15 hours in the hospital waiting for her. My god, have I been strung out the last couple of weeks. I feel tired but much more relaxed. Babies bring out all sorts of wierd behavior in the people involved, be it directly or indirectly. The mother was in a state of euphoria, the father a nervous wreck, grandmas and grandpas crying and saying how beautiful she is, and me, Auntie, was poking at the plastic bag that had the placenta in it. It looked like brains. Bloody brains from a Peter Jackson splatter film. It was cool.

Where have all the cowboys gone? Where is my Chun Wang? Where is his shiny gun? Where have all the cowboys gone?

Heh heh. I admit. My guyfriend Brandon turned me onto country. I'm listening to it all the time anymore. Country has a real cool sounds nowadays, so it ain't yo momma's country. Heh. Kenny Chesney! I love you! But I still love Die more! Forgive my cheating heart! ;)

Sorry everyone. I'm being whiny. I needed to get good and angry to dispell this tension that's built up. I love you all.

*waaaaah*

And I really don't know why I got so worked up. But here is my apology to the world! SORRRRRRRY!